All is almost lost... please help I have been on short-term medical leave for almost 2 months from my employer due to severe mental health issues that I was previously unaware of. I am returning to work on Monday. It is highly likely that I will be losing my job when I return. This is due to inappropriate work practices that occurred prior to my being on medical leave. While on medical leave it was found that my condition is attributable to the inappropriate work practices. Now that the disorder has been identified I’m on medication and being treated but the damage is done. If I lose my job will lose my health benefits and not be able to continue on my meds and additional treatment. In addition because of this mental condition I’ve not been able to develop and significantly marketable skills and is making finding other employment very, very difficult. I’ve lost hope. I cannot change the past with all the mistakes and hurt that I’ve suffered and others have suffered from this disorder. It has caused a lifetime of frustration and failure. Now I’m likely to lose everything – house, belongings, friends, credit. Everything. I’ve lost my hopes, dreams, wife, and potential for children all because of this over the course of my life up until now. I feel like the only one who could have done anything to help, change, or prevent this is God and I feel betrayed by him as well. I have nothing left to hope for, dream for, work towards, strive for… I feel like all hope for any type of favorable outcome is non-existent. I know all things happen for a reason and I sick of hearing it. I know God doesn’t close one door without opening another but I can’t see it. I know I should be patient and wait on Him but I feel betrayed. I feel as if he is waiting for me to hit rock bottom so my efforts and works can get out of the way… but I can’t I’m desperately scrambling to not end up homeless without sufficient medical care. I don’t know what to do… please help me. |