To all my brothers and sisters, I want to say thank you for being there for me when I needed you the most. I know I have not been on here for a LONG time. I shut myself out from everyone. I just couldn't handle it anymore. I just wanted to be left alone. Although, God was still with me and I know that you all were still praying for me. Alex and I are still together but things are just not getting better. He puts me down every time we argue. He tells me how uneducated I am and that I am not a go-getter and that I am bringing him down with me. I can't handle these hurtful things that he says to me anymore. And I still can't let go. I ask myself how can anyone love someone who does this. But my heart wins each time. I don't know where to look anymore. I have to go away for some training for six weeks. But today he saw this number from on our caller ID and asked me who it was. I told him I don't know, and that's the truth. He said he called the number and it went to some guy's voice mail. Then he checked the number on the internet and it was to some cruise line. Then he accused me of lying to him about the training. So he called his mother and said, "Mom, this B*%(# is lying. She is going on some cruise instead of training."

Father, please help me. I am slowly but surely dying inside.

I will certainly pray for you Lizzy. I am very sorry you are in this situation.

Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable – if anything is excellent or praiseworthy – think about such things.
-Philippians 4:8

I challenge you to minimize what people think of you. Challenge yourself to serve God only. Worrying of what people think of you is bondage. It's destructive because it is impossible. Someone who base relationships on performance and not acceptance will NEVER be satisfied. I promise you that. They live with the thought "if you drop the ball, you're gonna hear about it...!". Even if you do 10 things to make them happy, another 10 things come up, and another 10. It's a dangerous cycle. Also, to be a servant of Christ, you cannot serve two masters.
-Galatians 1:10 - For if I seek favor of men, I cannot be a servant of Christ.

Just remember, what people think of you is a very small thing.

I pray for your relationship to improve; but I also pray that You reach out to God to find out what path to take. Is it possible you two need a break? May God work on your boyfriend over these times. Is it possible you are (and I am guilty of it for sure) fearful of loss? Reach for things that are of good report. I know God will take care of you Lizzy.

Dear Heavenly Father,
We come to you in prayer for Lizzy. May her relationship with her boyfriend improve, God. He is saying hurtful things and Lizzy is having trouble coping with it. Please work on her boyfriend and Lizzy. Fill their hearts and minds with Your true peace and love. Give Lizzy hope for a future that you have promised her. May You light her path and be a lamp for her feet. Give her the strength to not fear loss or anything in this human world. Give her strength to improve her relationship with You. I ask God that you keep her safe through these hard times (that You have seen her go through). Give Lizzy fresh mercy each day, and each moment times get hard. We pray this in Jesus' Name. Amen.

He is constantly telling me that he doesn't care anymore and all he cares about is his education. Nothing more. I feel as if I am just here just to be here. Yes, deep down inside I believe I am afraid of loss.

Dear Lizzy,
I am here to pray for you all the time. Lizzy it would be better for you if you stand up on your own feet and try to be independent. My husband is behaving exactly same as your boyfriend. I dont know how long I can withstand with him. I am thinking to return to my country and never ever return to him. Please be strong. I will pray for you every day and night but be strong. I think he does not deserve your love.
Dear God please be with Lizzy, give her the strength. Please bless her a happy life. Amen.

Thank you so much. Everyone is telling me that I deserve better, but I cannot help how my heart feels. I also have a tendency to mouth off to him when we argue. So, I am trying now to just let things happen and not say anything about it. I know it will kill me to see him walk out the door if he does.