My whole life I have always fended for myself. I was raised in a house that didn't even acknowledge my existance, unless I did something wrong. My father constantly verbally and physically abused me. My mother used to lock me in my room for days at a time, she said it was for my own protection, I say it's because she wasn't strong enough to get out. At the age of 9 I went to live in a convent with 62 nuns. I loved them, I can honestly say it's the only time in my life that I remember feeling like i was truly loved. I was there for 3 years. When I left at the age of 12 and went home , I wasn't there very long. My mother found a new love interest at work, and left us. Anywhere was better than being home with my father, so I left too! I lived on the streets for 2 years stealing whatever I needed to survive. I would steal clothes off of peoples clothes lines, food from the store, hygiene products... etc... before I met the man I would end up marrying. I had three children with this man. One at 15, one at 16, and one at 17. 3 Babies being raised by a baby. But I tried my best. After about 3 years of marriage, my husband decided he didn't want the responsibilities of taking care of his family. He refused to work. As a matter of fact he refused to do anything. I was 19 years old, I had no formal education, 3 babies at home, and no matter how hard I tried , I couldn't get a job. I started stealing my childrens clothing, our food, whatever we needed. I got caught one to many times and ended up doing a 1 & 1/2 yrs prison term. I came home and went back to my husband, I had to he had my children. About 6 yrs into my marriage, my husband started beating on me. This went on for another 4 yrs. I woke up one day and said, "this is not going to happen to me" I packed my children up and took my car. We lived in our car for 2 weeks. All of our shelters were full. I went to the grocery stores everyday to steal food for my children. I stole cough medicine, and anything else we needed. I was lost. I prayed everyday, I asked God to help me. I was able to get my own apartment, my own furniture, the kindness of God's chosen really helped me when I needed it. I've been alone with my kids for 6 years now, they are all teenagers now. 15,14,and13. they're great, respectful, kids. They don't remember a lot from back then, Thank God. I put myself through school by myself. After 2 yrs of full time classes, I became a Nurse.
I worked hard and did my best to help teenage girls just like me. I developed over my whole life a deep and loving relationship with God. The Nuns I lived with really did save me, not only did they save me from being abused, but they planted the seed of Life in me. I didn't know it at the time, but as I grew and matured into a woman I understood. 4 months ago I was lifting an elderly patient and ruptured 2 discs in my back. The hospital is fighting my comp. They said it is my fault because I didn't do the lift properly.I literally have days that I have to crawl to the bathroom. Some days are good, I can move about slowly without pain.
I have applied for county help because my rent is overdue by 3 months, my power and phone are about to be shut off, I applied 30 days ago, they told me it could be upwards of three months before a determination is reached. All my life when I get to the point that I can't handle stress in my life, I go and steal what I need. It's all I've ever known. I was ordained as a non-denominational Minister in January. This time it's different. I have to be strong. I have to channel my energy into seeking out God's help. I no longer can use the "excuse" that I didn't know any better. I'm fighting Satan Himself here. I have incredible urges to just take what I need, I can't sleep at night. My kids and I are about to be homeless. I've always been a rock to my children, through God's help. I told Him, Lord I'm out of options. I have to do what I have to do. Please don't be mad at me. Please understand that no one is helping me. I heard Him say in a very clear and loud voice. " your only out of options because you've stopped looking" . "You always have options" " My children will help you, reach out to them". I refuse to lay my head down in shame from Him, I refuse to allow Satan to use my condition to put a distance on my relationship from Him. I refuse to believe as one of His Chosen Children that I really am alone. I have faith. So openly with His presence to guide me, I ask for help. Whether it be prayers, or donations. I pray for help. I reach out to all of my sisters and brothers in Christ. I need your help. The lord said, ask and you shall receive. Well fellow christians , I am asking. Please do not allow Satan to corner me. I need strength to push myself through this test. I need your help, please do not abandon me like so many others in my life.
He who is kind to the poor lends to the lord, and he will reward him for what he has done. Proverbs 19:17

Sincerely
Kienne

"Behold, I send you out as sheep in the midst of wolves; so be wise as serpents and gentle as doves. Beware for they will deliver you up to councils, and flog you in their synagogues, and you will be dragged before governors and kings for My sake, to bear testimony before them and the Gentiles.

When they deliver you up, do not be anxious how you are to speak or what you are to say; for what you are to say will be given to you in that hour; for it is not you who will speak, but the Spirit of your Father speaking through you.

Brother will deliver up brother to death, and the father his child, and children will rise against parents and have them put to death; and you will be hated by all for My Name's Sake. But the one who endures to the end will be saved.... If they have called the master of the house Beelzebul, how much more will they malign those of his household.

So have no fear of them; for nothing is covered that will not be revealed, or hidden that will not be known. What I tell you in the dark, utter in the light; and what you hear whispered, proclaim upon the housetops. And do not fear those who kill the body but cannot kill the soul; rather fear Him who can destroy both soul and body in hell.

Are not two sparrows sold for a penny? And not one of them will fall to the ground without your Father's will. But even the hairs of your head are all numbered. Fear not, therefore; you are of more value than many sparrows.

So every one who acknowledges Me before the world, I also will acknowledge before my Father who is in heaven; but whoever denies me before the world, I also will deny before my Father who is in heaven. (Matthew 10:16-33)

~)~ Righteous Father, Let Your Name Be Kept Holy.
Help us to remember the words of Yeshua who said that whoever would be the chief shall be the servant of all. He gave us the perfect example by coming not to be ministered unto but to minister, and He gave His life as a ransom for many. Thank You, Yeshua.
We thank you for the example of the Good Samaritan, LORD, who valued the need to care and show forth Your Love more highly than man-made restrictions and rules. He showed the kind of compassion and mercy You exhibit and seek when He stopped to care for the physcal needs of the injured man. Help us, LORD, to be a caring neighbor to others, whenever we encounter a need.
Help us to see that caring for others leads to happiness, LORD, You said that the merciful would be blessed for showing mercy to others. You have shown us how our care for others will help them receive Your mercy and turn to You.
May our love be without hypocracy at all times, Abba, so that we might always be kindly affectioned toward others in brotherly love. In honor, Abba Father, we want to learn how to prefer others, to distribute to the necessity of the saints and be given to hospitality. (Romans 12:8-13)
May we do everything possible to prevent division in Your body, LORD. Help us to remain involved in the mutual caring of Your body; teach us all to have the same care one for another. When a member suffers, LORD, help us to suffer with him or her and be willing to minister to their needs, as well as to pray for them. LORD, we thank You for the special joy that comes from knowing when we care for even the least among Your brethren, we have really done it unto You.
Abba Father, keep before our rememberane the fast You have chosen by caring for the needs of the oppressed, the hungry, the poor, naked and homeless and those who are of our own flesh. (Isaiah 58:6-8) Amen and Amen

~(~ Dear Key, May the Spirit Of Comfort so fill your life that others will find HIS Comfort through you. In the Christ Yeshua's name we pray. Amen and Amen

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The Spirit of the LORD is upon me, because He has anointed Me to preach the gospel to the poor; He has sent Me to heal the brokenhearted, to preach deliverance to the captives, and recovering of sight to the blind, to set at liberty them that are bruised,
To preach the acceptable year of the LORD. ... And the eyes of all them that were in the synagogue were fastened on Him. And He began to say to them, This Day Is This Scripture Fulfilled In Your Ears.
Luke 4:18-21

GOD of our LORD Yeshua the Christ, the Father of Glory, we pray that You would give Key and her family the spirit of wisdom and revelation in the knowledge of You, the eyes of their understanding being enlightened; that they may know, and understand, the hope of Your calling and what are the riches of the glory of Your inheritance in the saints, and that they may know what is the exceeding greatness of Your power toward us who believes, according to the working of your mighty power, which You wrought in Christ when You raised Him from the dead, and set Him at your own right hand in the heavenly places, far above all principality, and power, and might, and dominion, and every name that is named, not only in this world, but also in that which is to come. And You put all things to the church, which is His body, the fullness of Him which filleth all in all. Amen(Ephesians 1:17-23)

In Christ Yeshua's name we pray. Amen and Amen

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The Spirit of the LORD is upon me, because He has anointed Me to preach the gospel to the poor; He has sent Me to heal the brokenhearted, to preach deliverance to the captives, and recovering of sight to the blind, to set at liberty them that are bruised,
To preach the acceptable year of the LORD. ... And the eyes of all them that were in the synagogue were fastened on Him. And He began to say to them, This Day Is This Scripture Fulfilled In Your Ears.
Luke 4:18-21

Dear friend in Jesus, let me tell you that you have to believe and trust in God Jesus trulyyyyyy.Dont ever for a moment stop believein that he is not there to answer.
God is with you and if you want an immediate solution do this.
Right now gho into a empry room and ask God to help you. Say that in the name if Jesus, and by the precious blood he dhed for you thast you are his child and that you leave everything in his hand.Cry onto him and love him and commit yourself to him,