He has asked me twice before. My mother doesn't live in the United States and he knows that I want to wait until she can come here. And he told me that he wants to give me what I want. So, he will wait.

Please keep praying for us. It seems that every time he goes home he keeps thinking of the past. Either way he has to make a decision by Monday because school starts on Tuesday. I know when he was here he wanted to be here and not leave. Satan is trying to end this for us, God please banish all bad things from his mind. Keep Satan away from us. We are Your children. Please be by our side. Amen

I am still praying for you.

He came back sunday night. We've been okay. But I feel so distant from him. We even have a class together in school and we had to stand up and introduce ourselves and I went first, when it was his turn he also mentioned that we were together. Then after class he was almost hurt that I didn't say anything. He is still mean at times. Like he doesn't care but just for himslef. I keep praying for him and that's all I can do. I bite my tongue on so many things I want to lash out on, but I think of my Father and just let it go.

I am still praying for you.

__________________
It is the Lord who goes before you. He will be with you; he will not leave you or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed. Deuteronomy 31:8

They that sow in tears shall reap joy. [Psalms 126:5].

Patience really is a virtue. Since you have so great a desire for this marriage to work, I, personally believe you are right to bite your tongue because you cannot rtead his mind and he may be going through a lot more emotionally than you. Females are just a lot more vocal. Never go by what you see because you can't read minds. He may be thinking identically everything you are. It is "monumental" that he came back on Sunday. For "him" anyway. Father, in Jesus name, Holy Spirit continue to work on sealing this marriage for Your glory and and honour. Thank youf or the awesome progress that has already been occuring. Bless this marriage and let it become the shining example of what a godly marriage should be like. In Jesus name we pray. Amen and Amen! Lizzy, I missed you. Haven't seen you for a bit. Glad to hear from you. We love you, Lizzy. Keep us informed! kweig wants us to watch over you till she gets back.

Righteous Father, we pray that if this is the man that lizzy was meant to become engaged to and to marry, that nothing will hinder Your will, Righteous Father, from being fulfilled.

However, if this young man is Not the man You intended to become Lizzy's husband; then we pray, Abba Father, that this relationship between Lizzy and this young man will end peacefully- - and that Lizzy will delight to have Your will for her life to be fulfilled -- and she will wait expectantly on the LORD, and in His timing, to bring the right man into her life that will be the right husband for her. In Yeshua's name we pray! Alleluia! Amen and Amen

__________________
Jesus Christ the One referred to in Scripture,there is Salvation in No one else! There is no other name for men to call upon to save them-Acts4
My eyes ever looking to the Lord for help. He alone can rescue me. Come Lord, show me Your mercy for I am helpless, overwhelmed, in deep distress; my problems go from bad to worse. O' save me from them all! See my sorrows; feel my pain; forgive my sins-Ps26
The Lord is my strength & shield my heart trusted in Him and I am helped-Ps28

I know that I haven't been here for a while, but I am still praying. I have a lot of thoughts going on in my mind. We had yet another fight last night. He does not drink at all, unless we go out to dinner he MIGHT just have one drink, but last night he drank so much and he was happy after that. It annoyed me so much. I could hardly concentrate on anything. I have been talking to a counselor about the past issues and I just brought it up again last night. It made him so angry. He kept saying that I annoy him and that he was having a really good day and that I had to come and ruin it. He started using such foul language and when I asked him why he kept saying he doesn't care anymore. He says that he WILL NOT go to counseling with me. I love this man with all my heart and I refuse to give up on us, but I'm drained, exhausted with all this emotional rollercoaster that I have to go through. I feel really down and low, just low self-esteem and everything. This is not me. I'm usually the one who's always upbeat and outgoing. I need God to rescue me and our life. Alex needs help and I can't make him see that. I don't know what to do. Talking to him isn't helping anymore.

Lizzy,
Keep the love in your heart for him. Never lose that. That love is what will pray him into the Kingdom. It is one of the most difficult things a person can experience, to love GOD and your partner is uncomfartable with that. We are your faomily, too, and are praying with and for your family because family is important to GOD. Remember, it will take your own love for Christ that will keep you holding on for his salvation. Love NEVER fails, Lizzy. Stay strong. Don't get tired because you are doing what the Lord has commanded us. Keep praying. GOD hears you. I am praying, too. It will be alright, Lizzy. You don't see it now, but GOD always has a plan. Don't give up.

I feel like I am losing my mind. He seems to be playing little games with me all the time. He's always on the phones text messaging people and then when I check it when he's not around most of them have been deleted, but he'll leave the ones from me and his mom and his family. It's driving me insane. And when I ask him about it all he says is, "Listen, I'm not fighting with you so since you want to start arguing i'm just going to ignore you," and walks away. Why do things like this happen to people like me. I'm not saying I'm this amazing person, but I am truly very very good to this man. He's told me how his ex's have hurt him before and I always go out of my way to show him that I am real and that I am not like that when he is hurting me so much.