Please pray that David and I work things out. We are going thru a difficult time right now. I love him so much and my daughter loves him. This man has really made a difference in our lives. And now he is gone because of some gossip. Pray that he comes back to us and realizes how much I love him and how much he loves me. I am so in love with David and he is with me. Then my family started gossiping because I would not tell them who I was seeing because I did not want them to bother him. So they started rumors that I was seeing a married man. My abusive ex-boyfriend started coming to my apartment I told him to stay away that I had moved on and was happy and he should do the same. He wanted to know who David was. My daughter was dumping her boyfriend for a girl. My parents are dying my father from cancer and my mother will grieve herself to death. So I took it all out on David because I was so worried about the rumors, my daughter, her boyfriend, my parents and concerned that my ex-boyfriend would hurt David. My ex-boyfriend was a ranger in the military, been in prison, had assault charges in past, stalking charges in past, etc. So I yelled at David and now he will not talk to me. I did not want to tell him about the abusive ex-boyfriend. I'm so depressed about losing David. I have never had a man love me. My family is very dysfunctional and abusive. I have been in 2 bad marriages. I have always managed to keep my daughter safe and give her love and things she needed. I'm just at the point to give up on every having a happy life with a man I love. I'm very discouraged right now. See my daughter my 1st ex-husband and I adopted her. He did not want to pay child support because we adopted her. I fought to get her child support and everything she needed. When she turned 17 I gave her the information about her birth mother. The state made a error and sent me her orginal birth certificate with her birth parents name on it. So I have kept track of her mother all these years and her siblings. I told her when I gave her the information that she needed to be prepared that she might not want to meet her and that I would go with her if she wanted me to. Well she went on her own to meet her birth mother and it was great. I have spent time with her birth mother and babysat for my daughter's sister's baby. I told her birth family that they are part of my family now. That this is the only way this will work and it works. I have went thru photo albums with her birth mother, told her stories, and gave her (birth mother) pictures for her parents and sibling. When my daughter's birth mother told me I can't believe you have done this for me and she asked me why? I told her that it was the right thing to do she gave me the most precious gift of all her child to raise. Now it is time for me to give back to you by sharing. I told her you will always be her birth mother and I will always be the mother that raised her. We cannot take anything away from the other all there is to do is share now. My daughter convinced everyone when she was in kindegarten that being adopted made you special, so all the kids wanted to be adopted. She realized again how special she is when her birth mother, me, her brother and her mother's husband was together at graduation. We even went to graduation together. What I am trying to say is I am not a selfish person and I try to do what is right. And I am beginning to feel like what have I done to not deserve the happiness and love I have with David. Why is God doing this to me haven't I been a good enough person to deserve that special someone. I am ready to give up.
need urgent prayer to heal relationship 
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