God's plan for marriage Hi
As I'm approaching my 1 year anniversary with my boyfriend, I'm feeling increasingly sad and discouraged. I feel very strongly that God has brought us together for marriage, and the rest of the world (both our families, all our friends, and generally even random people who meet us and see us together) seems to agree. My boyfriend, however, is still not sure. He's 40 years old and has never been married, and he's not sure that he ever will get married. He says that he'll either marry me or be alone forever, and while he's more than 60% sure, he really doesn't seem to be progressing beyond that. We have so many people encouraging us and praying for us, but every once in a while, he gets really nervous and stresses out because he's not 100% sure yet, and he feels like he should be. I'm not putting any pressure on him timewise, so I'm not sure why he feels like he has to hurry to figure it out. In any case, when he stressed out, I take it really personally, and I feel like dirt. He has brought me such happiness in my life, and I'm so thankful for every moment that we get to spend. I really believe that God wouldn't bring someone into my life to taunt me like this with such wonderful happy times and thoughts of marriage if it wasn't going to happen, especially given the other stuff I have suffered in my life. So that leaves me kind of confused. I'm starting to feel helpless and hopeless. So, I need your prayers, and so does he. Please pray that God would open the eyes of his heart so that he could see the plan that everyone else sees. Please pray that God would give me the strength to keep going and to have faith and hope that I will not lose another person I care about. Thank you. |