im so lost At this moment in time Im extremly hurting, i cried a little while ago while I was studying for an ASVAB test for the military, I have no other choice except the military, I just turned 18 I live on my own and I am having a hard time finding a job. I beleive the lord is trying to teach me somthing just as the passage int he bible "the proticles son", only the lord has already given me more than 3 chances with my mother and step father, I thought that I was always right and I wronged my parents so much, and I feel so guilty and now my relationship with my mother and father is beyond repair, they have done nothing wrong, but I have. I am a high school drop out, no car, no money, but a place to stay for the time being. If I dont find a job i'll get kicked out. I have become a back sliding christain, I remember the time when My parents were still together and I went to church worshipped God, and all of a sudden my parents got divorced, my mother left for a while and I turned to goth and started not going to school, I lost the side of me which I foudn now, when reality pushed it's way back in my life. All I have now is my mother and my Lord. But now, even my mother is at her ends wits and now I am faced with the real world. I despratley need guidance, the lord to show me, I am so lost, I do not want to become homeless at the age of 18, I want to go into the military, but how do I do that when I barely understand math, or dont know how to drive or do not have a job, I cant blame anyone but myself, I fear I have gone so deep that the lord will not help me, I have done so much wrong. I am so sorry. |