I want to thank all parterners for all the lifting of the word on my behalf. I have been in a struggle and have been able to comletely lean on the understanding of who I am in Christ Jesus. He has taught me the importance of putting on the whole armor of God. As the Lord had blessed me with more miracles in my life this year than I have ever seen, so too, did Satan come in and try to destroy the benefits of all this. To take every thought captive is possible. I have realized that with my Savior and what he did in making sure I would not have to stand in judgement, is the power to do this.
I have been off line because I haven't had the strength in my mind or body to deal with others. I have tried to get my life back and slowly it is happening.
I had four family members pass away. One in April, then one on June 19th, the third on June 24th, the last one was my brother on June 26th. As the whole of it all was hitting me, the family members that have mental illness (Satanic issues) decided that this was an opportunity to be front and center in their glory. Praise God, his power and his angels with the flaming sword of the spirit took control. He has cut all these devices of Satan out of my life. The things I was holding on to in my wrong thinking, that I had to somehow be the one to control these people was burned up by the holy spirit. God said, He would lift me up and I was to stop casting the blessings he was giving to me to the swine. I was giving my blessings away. He taught me that he will draw them unto himself. Nothing I do, other than pray for them will help them. I was suffering the punishment for their sins. Jesus did this. It is done. I am now free to live my life without the load of bricks that they were heaping on me. It is freedom in a way I've never know. Praise God and all his glory and grace and forgiveness. As this transition has been made in my life, I am now getting my strength back, but still leaning on him by the minute. The evil in this world is not going away. This is why the understanding of who we are in Christ must get so deep in us that no matter what comes, the first thing out of our mouth should be, thank you Jesus for taking this punishment that I don't have to. These other people must reap what they sow. In my stepping in and saving them from themselves in trying to show them God, they considered me the savior. I am not. Jesus is the savior. After 51 years I have realized I can't make them understand. Jesus has to do this. So, because of this, my blessings from God will stay with me and I will no longer cast my pearls before the swine. I will trust in the lord and wait upon the lord to save them. I am still in the middle of all the destruction that Satan has created, but the power of My God is in control. I ask for prayer for the strongholds to be broken in all areas and That the true Glory of God will be revealed in all this. We are waiting for Aunt's and Uncle's to recover in their spirit from the other deaths in the famiy before we have my brother's service. Their health is not good and this has been just to hard. They are also trying to help me stay off the Devil and his using family members to cause caos. Thank you for your prayers and I will with the help of God be back on line soon. Love you in the Lord. Your Sister in the Army of God. Sandy