Dear christain737, kweig,
Thank you so much for your advice. Actually I feel very scared now a days to talk with him. I am afraid that he may talk about divorce again. Yes, I acknowledge him that how much I love him. Your are correct that only God and he knows what is on his mind. I only praying to God.
Thank you all for praying for me.
I also pray for all who is struggling for their betterment in their life. May God bless you all.

Dipa, I am still praying that the Lord begins to make your husband turn around. I pray that he begins to miss you. I pray that the Lord begins to lead you in everything. I will continue praying for you each night, until you no longer need it!

Dipa, I know that it is easier said then done, but try to remain strong. Try to have the courage to realize that no matter what happens to you, and your marriage, God is in control. If we're not careful we can get caught up in our fears, and this just destroys any Joy and Peace we can have in our lives.

***I recently went to a funeral, and the Pastor said that this 34 yr. old person had lived life to the fullest, and we could all learn from her example. He went on to say that sometimes we tell ourselves that when I get through this, then I will be happy; and so on, and so forth. He said that the time to live, and be happy was today. He said if we do not do this, that we would look back on our lives, and regret waisting so much time, waiting for things to get better, so we could be happy.

***The time to be happy is today. I know that you cannot jump for joy right now. As this is a very serious problem; But try not to let it consume you, until it steals every little piece of Joy that you could have. Please start to try to find little things that do bring some happiness.

***I remember a few yrs. back, I was going through tremendous stress. One day I was driving down the road, and I put my hand out of the window (without knowing that I was even doing it) I remember thinking that I had a smile on my face, and it felt good. This was just something so simple, and may seem just so minor; But at the time, it had been months that I had even smiled. If I could go back, I would change how I viewed all the problems, and looked at the good things more. As I had ruined 2 yrs. of my life, being so miserable.

***Try not to let this happen to you! The time to live, is today Dipa! I love you as a Sister in the Lord, and I only want the best for you, just as our Heavenly Father does!!!

***Also, maybe this would change your husband's point of view about you, if he saw that you were actually starting to have a life, and beginning to find your joy, even without him? I pray that you always look to the Lord, when listening to anything that I say, the Lord is perfect, and I am not!!!