Am now 25 and my very first memory is of having sexual intercourse.I have been abuse by some many different men in my life even my family.How do i ever move on or forget about the way they all me me feel as a loser.I have never had anyone to tell who would believe me.Now i cant even know a man without getting into bed with him it hurt me but that is what i know as a child.To me i believe that one will not accept me unless i sleep with him.
I am now a single parent and i don't want all different men to be coming around my child but it always happen.
How do one get heal from such a horrible pass.I don't want to live another year like i have in the past.
I am destine to be a child of God i mean a real true Christian but i always let men get in the way.
Can someone just please help me pray for healing.I want to be happy I want to have my child happy.I am so fed up failing .Please Pray for me

I'm sorry you've had a terrible past.You did'nt deserve to be abused like that.the thing to focus on now is your future with the Lord.Please don't give up hope,there are people at this site who will hold you up in prayer.God has a wonderful plan for your life.God bless.

Hi, please remember that God loves all of his children. He has a plan for all of us and is always walking beside you. Abuse is a hard part of life to explain, but please know that you have done nothing to deserve what has happened to you. I wil always keep you in my prayers. Be Blessed Ambie

I am so sorry you had to go through what you went through as a child. You didn't deserve it and it's not your fault. I will pray for you and your child to be happy and to grow closer to God. I will also pray that you will learn to accept yourself as the equal to any man and that you do not owe him anything just because you are female. It's not easy, but God will help you through it.

Blessed be,
-MM-

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Don't give up five minutes before the miracle!

God said No, It is not for me to take away

I asked God to take away my habit
but for you to give it up.

I asked God to make my handicapped child whole.
God said, No his spirit is whole,
his body is only temporary.


I asked God to grant me patience.
God said, No. Patience is a byproduct of
tribulations. It isn’t granted, it is earned.

I asked God to give me happiness.
God said No. I give you blessings.
Happiness is up to you.

I asked God to spare me pain.
God said No. Suffering draws you apart from worldly cares
and brings you closer to me.

I asked God to make my spirit grow.
God said No. You must grow on your own,
but I will prune you to make you fruitful.

I asked God for all things that I might enjoy life.
God said No. I will give you life so that you may
enjoy all things.

I asked God to help me love others, as much as he loves me.
God said... Ahhh finally you have the right idea

Jesus said one time to a woman caught with a man and to her accusers..
"He who is without sin cast the first stone". They all left because they were all guilty and they knew it. JESUS who came down to rescue you and all of us who turn away from what is wrong and begin to learn to LOOK at JESUS. And to call HIS NAME. Cry, JESUS, COME save me from these thoughts. Jesus save me from the memories. JESUS renew my mind.
JESUS I hear that Your Blood is able to wash away all sin, all horrible deeds done, and even though our sins are as scarlett YOU and YOUR BLOOD washes them all away forever and YOU and YOUR BLOOD cleanses us, paid for all of it and washes us WHITE as SNOW. Yes.
JESUS said to the woman in the BIBLE, neither do I condemn you. Go and sin no more.

How do we get the Power to stop saying, Yes, when we really mean "NO"?
We open our mouth and we say His Powerful Name. Over and over until HE comes and HIS POWER and HIS HOLY PRESENCE comes. When the choice comes. When the old pattern and old ways try to come again and take over we open our mouth and we say out loud, with all of our heart, "JESUS! JESUS! YOU are my GOD! YOU ARE MY HUSBAND! YOU ARE MY PROTECTOR! JESUS. JESUS. JESUS! Forgive me! Forgive them!

When GOD became a man, the only perfect holy man, JESUS, HE did so because of all the horrible things that are going on down here.

FATHER GOD loves you and me and all of us. HE sees the invisible evil spirits all around.
But there are twice as many good angels to protect us and help us as we learn to cry out loud, JESUS, I need You. Jesus You are my GOD! Jesus You are my Husband! JESUS Your Blood was spilled out for me to be set free of my past.

JESUS forgives us. JESUS took all of those horrible happenings and rapes and hurts on HIS own BODY. HE is the Lamb of GOD who sacrificed HIMSELF, gave HIS own life up for you.
You tell JESUS that you want HIM to give you HIS very own RIGHTEOUSNESS. HE has a GIFT for you! JESUS asks you to give to him all those horrible memories and all that pain and hurt and torments and helplessness and darkness and just tell JESUS, JESUS I am transferring these thoughts and actions and wrongs to YOU because I heard that YOU can take them and YOU want them. I can give them away to YOU JESUS because YOU are GOD and also YOU came for me to give you these things and ask YOU for YOUR OWN HOLINESS,
I ask YOU JESUS and FATHER GOD to give me YOUR FREE GIFT of RIGHTEOUSNESS.
Make me HOLY like YOU are HOLY! I want to be clean. Cleanse me with YOUR HOLY LIFE BLOOD. I want you JESUS to heal me and protect my children and protect me from men and from evil. I want to do Your WILL. Help me JESUS to read the BIBLE and to stop looking at television. I have heard that YOU JESUS want me to look at YOU and at YOUR EYES of LOVE. I hear that YOU have accepted me. That FATHER GOD wants me and loves me and that YOU have loved me and known me since I was a little baby in my mother's body.
"All who call upon the Name of JESUS will be saved"
JESUS came to set us captives free.
GOD has written a book just for you dear one. Get the HOLY BIBLE and start reading it as much as possible. Don't worry about understanding it at first. Just open it up and read and ask JESUS to be your TEACHER. Ask GOD the HOLY SPIRIT to help you to read it and to come and lead you and take you by your hand. Read it to your children too. When you are afraid talk to JESUS and read the WORD of GOD. Try to learn by heart as much of it as you can. Keep it by your bed at night and keep the HOLY BIBLE out and copy some of the Scriptures. Read the Psalms and when something comes along that really helps you write it down on a card and put it where you are working, washing dishes, in your pocket.

II Timothy 1:7 7 For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.

Human beings have demons controlling them to do evil. There are evil spirits of LUST.
JESUS came to set us free from
The LUST of the EYES.
THE LUST of the FLESH
PRIDE

Ask JESUS to forgive you and to flood your mind and heart and home and body and eyes and ears and hands and feet and heart with HIS WORD, with HIS TRUTH. TRUTH sets us free when we know it and hear it and believe it and act upon it. Speak the TRUTH in LOVE.
Start reading the HOLY BIBLE out loud. The more of GOD's WORDS and GOD's THOUGHTS you can look at and hear and read and speak and then put them into practice.

Read the BIBLE and live it out. Look at the directions and read LUKE. Read Genesis.
Read the Kings and Chronicles. Read Samuel. Read Exodus. Read Romans.
Read Psalms. Read Amos. Read and read and read and speak it out loud.
Pray the WORD of GOD. It is full of prayers you can pray.

Look for promises and you ask FATHER GOD and JESUS to give you these promises.
Get on your knees and talk to JESUS alot. Call him by Name. Ask HIM questions.
Tell JESUS everything and ask JESUS to make you brand new person.
JESUS has a brand new spirit for you.
A brand new HOPE.
A brand new LIFE.
JESUS will come live inside of you.
Father GOD and HOLY SPIRIT will come too.
Tell them you want them to flood you with themselves and to give you PEACE.

Ephesians 2:14 JESUS is our PEACE. JESUS has chosen you to belong to HIM and HE will be YOUR GOD and YOUR HUSBAND and HOLY SPIRIT will be YOUR FATHER and provider.
Talk to JESUS. Call upon JESUS over and over. Tell HIM how much you want JESUS to make you brand new and wipe out with HIS LIVING BLOOD so full of HOLY SPIRIT all the horrible past and hurts. When thoughts come kick them out. Cast them over to JESUS. HE is big enough to handle them.
Pray for JESUS to fill you will forgiveness and HIS JOY and HIS UNDERSTANDING.

Practice saying, "NO IN JESUS NAME" to men. Say out loud, NO, in JESUS NAME. JESUS is my KING. JESUS is my SAVIOR. JESUS is my LIFE.

You can talk out loud to thoughts and feelings and tell men to get out and go away in JESUS Name.
Get the Psalms and the BIBLE and pray them and read them out loud until PEACE comes.
HE has a home for you inside of JESUS who is GOD.
There is a wonderful place for you and me and each of us who will turn to JESUS and away from our way and follow JESUS and fill your mind with the HOLY BIBLE and read it to your child or children and friends. Talk to men and people about JESUS. Ask them to read the BIBLE out loud too.

Our Father who art in Heaven.
Hallowed be THY NAME.
THY KINGDOM COME.
THY WILL BE DONE.
IN EARTH as it is in HEAVEN.
GIVE US THIS DAY our DAILY BREAD.
FORGIVE us our DEBTS or trespasses as we forgive our debtors or those who have
trespassed against us.
Deliver us from evil and the evil one.
For thine is the Kingdom and the Power and the Glory forever. Amen.

I John 1:9 If we confess our sins HE is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.
FATHER GOD in CHRIST JESUS has a GIFT for you.
Many gifts.
Ask JESUS to make you HIS Temple and to clean you. Tell HIM you want a clean heart,
a clean body, a clean mind, clean memories, and a new HEART.
FATHER GOD and JESUS have a brand new spirit for you.
A brand new heart.
And THEY BOTH want you to invite them to come inside of you so you will never be alone again.
They will fight for you.
Exodus 14:14 I will fight for you. Hold your peace!

We cry JESUS JESUS JESUS we believe in YOU. We are trusting in YOU and
we are looking for all of your promises in YOUR HOLY BIBLE.
Send the COMFORTOR to this child of yours who needs YOUR PURE and HOLY LOVE and
PRESENCE. Fill her with FAITH. GIVE her protection. GODly friends who will bless her and not take advantage of her. Thank you JESUS! GOD!

Thanking FATHER GOD for you dear precious child of HIS.
I am Anna in the Temple Praying
HOPE IN GOD.
ROMANS 5:5 The LOVE OF GOD is shed abroad in our hearts by GOD the HOLY SPIRIT.
HOLY SPIRIT shed your LOVE abroad in her heart and in the heart of her child.
THANK YOU.
JESUS is the PASSOVER LAMB who GOD has sacificed in our place and FATHER GOD has laid upon JESUS all those horrible things already and JESUS GOD is powerful enough and humble enough and obedient enough to FATHER GOD and HOLY enough that HE removes them and the stains and hurts.
HE makes us clean. We ask JESUS to make us right with Father GOD and to make us clean and to wash us and then baptize us into the HOLY SPIRIT and surround us with GOD the HOLY SPIRIT and with DIVINELOVE and HOLINESS and PROTECTION and GRACE and TRUTH and PROVISION and TEACH us and COMFORT us. THEY WILL do one.
Replace old thoughts and mind sets and old experiences with the THOUGHTS of JESUS and GOD. LEARN and LIVE the BOOK of GOD and pray it and believe it and speak it and drink it and eat it and live it and share it and everything will be all right.
Proverbs 3:5,6 TRUST in the LORD with all your heart. Lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge JESUS and HE will direct your path.

Tammikrys, I feel your pain, and I have faith that you can change your life around, without letting men get in the way of it. Do things to make you and your child happy. Do not look for another man, the right one will find you, when the time is right. Follow God and you will never be lost. I am sorry to hear about the abuse you went through in the past, and also in the future, but believe you will be healed from these things, and you will live happily with your child. Do you go to Church? If you don't, make that a routine for you and your family, and it will really open your eyes as you meet good people, as you will gain a better understanding of your life. I have had men get in the way of my happiness as well, but then I realized what I needed to do, to make myself happy and the other's around me. I was around some bad people, and I changed my life, and started following God again, and my life turned around. I don't have too much time to attend Church regularly, so I come on this site, where I have met many nice believer's to pray with and for me. I have had an endless amount of support, which is very important, and I am so thankful for everyone's advice. I pray God gives you the strength to move on in your life, to find new and better things, that will help you be healed from the pain and a abuse you have gone through. May you find new friends here, who can help you, support you, and give advice that will help you find happiness for you and your child today.

I send you and your child many blessings, stay positive, good things will happen to you. Never let a man get in the way of your true happiness, let one bring you the happiness you seek.

-Jess

"For your Maker is your husband--the Lord Almighty is His name--the Holy One of Israel is your Redeemer; He is called the God of all the earth." Isaiah 54:5

Your beloved LORD Jesus stands to you in a new and more endeared relationship, even as you stand to Him in a new and more dependant relationship. As such He is your portion. Your bereavement is so crushing, your grief so profound, your desolation so vast, your loss feels so irreparable, the pen shrinks from even the attempt to describe it. The whole landscape of your life has been draped in wintry coldness and gloom. But the LORD is your portion. "For your Maker is your husband.." You are united more especially and closely to a Divine and heavenly Husband... even to God in Christ Jesus, who stands now in a new and more endeared relation to you, as you have now a new and more sacred claim upon Him. You are the object of His especial regard. He will establish your border, and just as "He relieves the fatherless and the widow." Such is the Divine portion, under who's sheltering wing you have now come to rest. "Your Maker is your Husband." ALL and infinately more, that the fondest, most powerful, and Faithful husband ever was, the LORD is to you. Let Him, as none other can, fill the vacant place in your heart. He can make even your solitary and desolate heart sing for joy. Espouse Christ afresh. Let Jesus be your first love.
Speak out loud and say to your Heavenly Husband, Blessed Jesus, let me now and forever be united to You! Give me Your Spirit to seal the sacred union. Enable me, as enjoined in the Word, "to trust in God, and to continue in supplication and prayer day and night, to help strangers, to wash the saints feet, just as You did, precious LORD, and to relieve the afflicted, and diligently to follow every good deed." Thus striving by Your grace to glorify You in the solemn character of a God-fearing, God-trusting, woman, enable me to rejoice in You as my portion, my loving Husband, my loving Father, and my Friend, believing that You will shield me in temptation, supply me in need, comfort me in sorrow, heal me in my wounds, share with me the responsibility in raising my child, You are her Father now, and our Provider, be with me in my life and in my death, and give me a place at the marriage supper of the Lamb.
Amen and Amen

"For your Maker is your husband now..."

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"For your Maker is your husband--the Lord Almighty is His name--the Holy One of Israel is your Redeemer; He is called the God of all the earth." Isaiah 54:5

Your beloved LORD Jesus stands to you in a new and more endeared relationship, even as you stand to Him in a new and more dependant relationship. As such He is your portion. Your bereavement is so crushing, your grief so profound, your desolation so vast, your loss feels so irreparable, the pen shrinks from even the attempt to describe it. The whole landscape of your life has been draped in wintry coldness and gloom. But the LORD is your portion. "For your Maker is your husband.." You are united more especially and closely to a Divine and heavenly Husband... even to God in Christ Jesus, who stands now in a new and more endeared relation to you, as you have now a new and more sacred claim upon Him. You are the object of His especial regard. He will establish your border, and just as "He relieves the fatherless and the widow." Such is the Divine portion, under who's sheltering wing you have now come to rest. "Your Maker is your Husband." ALL and infinately more, that the fondest, most powerful, and Faithful husband ever was, the LORD is to you. Let Him, as none other can, fill the vacant place in your heart. He can make even your solitary and desolate heart sing for joy. Espouse Christ afresh. Let Jesus be your first love.
Speak out loud and say to your Heavenly Husband, Blessed Jesus, let me now and forever be united to You! Give me Your Spirit to seal the sacred union. Enable me, as enjoined in the Word, "to trust in God, and to continue in supplication and prayer day and night, to help strangers, to wash the saints feet, just as You did, precious LORD, and to relieve the afflicted, and diligently to follow every good deed." Thus striving by Your grace to glorify You in the solemn character of a God-fearing, God-trusting, woman, enable me to rejoice in You as my portion, my loving Husband, my loving Father, and my Friend, believing that You will shield me in temptation, supply me in need, comfort me in sorrow, heal me in my wounds, share with me the responsibility in raising my child, You are her Father now, and our Provider, be with me in my life and in my death, and give me a place at the marriage supper of the Lamb of GOD. Amen and amen

Dear Tammi, we wanted you to know that LORD Jesus placed you on our hearts with His love for you to continue to lift you and your child up to the throne of Almighty GOD for His Divine Protection and Divine Counsel to be there for you and guide you. To remind you to always talk to Him about everything. He loves you, and He knows everything about you and everything you need to be healed and restored in health and joy. Keep trusting in Him always.

~~~~Keep your eyes upon Jesus, look long in His wonderful face, and the things on earth, will grow strangely dim, in the light of His glory and grace. ~~~~Amen and Amen.

Tammi, a song is playing in my thoughts...and I have taken the liberty to ad-lib -
I changed some of the lyrics -

I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
You get your fill to eat
But always keep that hunger
May you never take one single breath for granted
God forbid love ever leave you empty handed
I hope you still feel small
When you stand beside the ocean
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me you'll give faith a fighting chance

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance
before your LORD,
at your own wedding
I hope you dance.

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Living might mean taking chances
But they're worth taking
Lovin' might be a mistake
But it's worth making
Don't let some hell bent heart
Leave you bitter
When you come close to selling out
Reconsider
Give the heavens above
More than just a passing glance

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance
before your Savior,
I hope you dance

I hope you dance
hand in hand
with the groom
your Heavenly FATHER
planned

I hope you dance
and rejoice in HIM
for having been
Your FAITHFUL FRIEND!
Giving you here
a husband and
your child a father
worhty of your heart's desire.

I hope you still feel small
When you stand beside the ocean
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me you'll give faith a fighting chance

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
Dance
I hope you dance
I hope you dance
Keep seeking the LORD
and trusting in HIM
and He will direct your every plan.

God bless you, Tammi

What has happened to you was not your fault, don't think for a second that it was. Look at how you are seeking help from you brothers and sisters. Know that we are all here for you, and will help you. You are stronger than you think. Just keep praying, have hope and you will heal. Thought you may find this prayer helpful. God Bless You.

Lord,
With your bright and open heart forgive me for showing darkness to the light.
Putting my back, to what is right was wrong and i have sinned against you.
Forgive me O merciful one because i have relised my wrong and i am sorry for what i have done.
Lord i am ready to contiue following in your footsteps.
Take me from the dark.
Hear me now O lord.
Amen