Well- I knew God wouldn't talk to me, so i asked him to lead me to someone who would.. and wouldn't you know- either by coincidence or not- the weirdest thing happened.
Easily offended need not read any further- i edited but dont have time to edit everything i wrote..

I drag race for fun and stuff. about 6 PM last night, i fired up the stang' and i was going over to a friend, who works at a garage, to see if i could find him so i could borrow some tools, and see if we could go do doughnuts or burnouts in a parking lot.

I didn't find him, but i talked with the owners and stuff, and i walked out side for a bit afterwards. As usual, i started feeling like crap, just anger and sadness for the world that i always feel- and i was just standing there trying to see if i could find the guy i was looking for.

Anyway- this man walks up to me, and an event of dialouge about 30 minutes long happend.

he says to me "how you doing, you on top the world or is the world on top of you?' i told him the worlds on top of me. He says 'You believe in God' I say- well i, this and that and he says 'Thats a Fu*ing yes or no question' (He had a problem with cursing- and i honestly do doubt the sanity of this man- more on that later) I tell him yes- but that i was doubtful. He asks me for my name i tell him. He goes in, comes back out, and shows me his chest 'see that?' (he had a tatoo of a cross on his chest) he said i just got out the hospital, been in and out- heart problems, put a tattoo right over my heart so they know they're operating on a fng christian"

So he asks me howd you get so big? i assume its because i stand with authority as a habbit (..tough ROTC teacher, and i am a secret war junky) so i told him. I got the impression he fought in vietnam, since he cussed alot, and pretty much looked like crap (i know guys who fought vietnam, and he kind of resembled them) so i asked him if he did. He told me no, never signed up because he didnt want to disgrace his father. He told me he just got out of a mental institution (or jail- i cant remember..) because he threatned to kill his room mate. He asked me if i ever killed a man- i told him ive really wanted to. he told me not to worry about it- and that it was just murder of the mind. he told me to look into his eyes, and asked me "look into my eyes- do i look like id threaten a man before i killed him?' ..I'll be honest- it really didn't look like he would.

so a few seconds pass and he asks me why i dont have faith or something, i ask him if he talks to God. He says every morning. I say does he' and he cuts me off- and then says 'he never answers you' im like yup. He says maybe the answer is no, and then some dialouge i cant exactly remember happens (don't want to add to the story if i dont remember for sure) and he tells me when he sky dived with the 100 something second airborne (he does this for fun) his chute failed and he saw an angel for 8 seconds. and he says follow me-
This guy- walks in the middle of the damn road- and tells me "here is how much i love you, i dont even fng know you and i'd die for you man' So i'm like what the hell is this idiot doing, i tell him to get off the damn road. He says 'If i get hit jesus isnt real but if i dont he is- or something like that. So i tell him to stop F'n around and get the heck away- and hes like 'If i die for you I go to heaven, i dont care" I'm like NO bud- i dont think it works that way- so a G35 drives past him- and hes facing the other way- and the G35 speeds up and hes like "is he speeding up?" and it passes him, a few more cars pass, some gestures here and there- and this is on a 2 lane road. Then- there is a Nissan Frontier on one side- and a CITY BUS on the other- and hes in the middle- So i'm like alright- if he gets hit- its funny, but i still try to talk him out of it- i tell him man get off the road- and thankfully, the the 2 cars work it out and dont destroy him. So hes like ' ok nuff of that'

So, during this time- i ask him some questions- and the guy may be crazy- but i promise you- this guy must know every page of the bible by heart and page number. so i ask him for some proof of how he knows God is real and he tells me that he saw an angel, for 8 seconds, and etc. So i tell him give me proof- he tells me he cant give me phyiscal proof, and that maybe God was giving me proof by quote "Showing me a F'n christian lebonese man, with blue eyes" (he did have blue eyes..and was lebonese..) and feeds me the typical crap about feeling him in my heart- so i ask him how i 'feel him' and how i hear him. And he tells me if i want to hear God, all i have to do is "Shut the F up" and he answers some other questions here and there. it got time to close the shop down for the night, and he holds my hand with me - and i can see the owner of the store is like 'man what the hell are these guys doing' and he starts praying..and tells me to leave and to find him again in a week to tell him how i'm doing. I'm bad at re telling past events- some things happend before the other and i left some details of our conversation long (all the dialogue would fill up the page)- but that is honestly the weirdest conversation i've had with anyone in 19 years of life
I'll see if i can find him again next week- but if anything- atleast this proves God talks to crazy people.