Kweig,
Thanks for all the prayers and advice. (To everyone else, too, who has been praying for me). You are right, of course. But, if I fell for this guy, he actually made it happen. And, I did not set up the appropriate boundaries with him because I wanted it to happen. I welcomed it. I think he developed a crush on me, and when I realized it, I totally shut down communicating with him in an open fashion. I changed to put on the breaks, but I kept working out with him. Just a couple of things he did. He approached me like a romantic date would do, standing face to face with me, and took each one of my hands in his, looked me in the eyes romantically, and then twirled me around and said, "You'd be great to dance with because you fit under my arm." A few weeks later, he and I were working out Friday evening, and he said to me, "I lift you up when you're down, and you lift me up when I'm down. We lift each other up. You know, today I was feeling so terrible training people all day and feeling miserable. But, you just came in and we started talking, and now I'm happy. And, it's all because of you."
Needless to say, when a personal trainer says things like that to a woman, that's not just flirting, that's heavy duty stuff. Then, he started calling me by pet names, like Kimberley, Kimmy, Miss Kim, and all that kind of stuff that is more personal in nature. He would be wherever I was at the gym, and it was too, too much attention. So, now tell me if it was all in my imigination. I was very late putting a stop to it, but I gained my self respect. Better late than never. But, I think he's just very young and who knows what kind of problems he has relating to women. But, he did wrong by me, and I ended it as a Christian woman would. I know he respects me, and I am getting better and better about this as each day goes by, and I covet your prayers, all of you.
I am asking that the Lord teach me through this agonizing experience; I don't want to have gone through this in vain, for nothing. I have to learn from it. And, I most assuredly have grown from it. |