I can relate to you directly on this one. In a previous thread i talked about how reckless and i was and what disregard i had for not only my life but the lives around me. Forgiveness is number one in my blessing upon me also if it was not for that i might not have a second chance (or third or fourth) but i understand and feel for you. God bless and gods strength to keep us from going to back to the lives we used to lead....musicislove