Oh I'm sorry to hear about your situation, but it sounds to me that since there has been so many bad things that has happened to you, you have lost your faith. You are allowing evil to take over which is causing the true destruction. Pray to our heavenly father - he will hear you, but you must BELIEVE, have HOPE, FAITH and TRUST in our lord. God has plans for all of us. Be strong, fight off the demons that are taking over your faith. I will be praying for you. God Bless