I'm so sorry that you are going through this, but you have to start believing in God. You can hear his answers through your heart. Everyone in this world is here on a journey including you and being suicidal shouldn't be the answer to your problem. You have made a choice and it's for a good reason. Maybe she's not meant for you. Love yourself first before you start loving anyone else. Enjoy life, and remember there's always a reason why things happen. You probably haven't found your soul mate and this is a way for you to go on with your life so you can finally find that right person. God bless you, and I hope you start letting God in your life. He is the only person that makes a lot of great things possible. I hope you take what I'm telling you into some consideration and cheer up. Enjoy your life to the fullest!

Rosie