Edward, I'm sorry to hear about the storm you are in right now, but by you turning to god for guidance is turning to the right path. You have come to terms that you have made poor decisions in the past, which hopefully you have learned from, now you can only better yourself. Just pray to god for help. He is with you all the time. Now its the time to just start believing that. You must have faith, hope and trust and our heavenly father will show you the direction to go in. It is very easy to allow the evil to take over but you must stay strong and have the power to over come that, just ask god and he will show you. I am praying for you. God Bless
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God of mercy,you know the secrets of all human hearts,for you know who is just and you forgive the repentant sinner.Hear my prayer in the midst of destruction;give me patience and hope,so that under your protection and with you as my guide,I may one day be reunited with my family and friends in peace, tranquility, and love.Grant this through Christ our Lord.

You govern your creation, O God,and bring it to perfection by the work of our hands.Hear the prayers of your people who ask for work that will enhance their human signity and promote the upbuilding of your kingdom.Enable them to provide for those confided to their care either by family ties or by charity we owe to one another for the betterment of human life.We ask this blessing in the name of Jesus who laboured with his own hands while he lived on earth.Amen.