God does have a plan. And you need to look at this as yet another blessing. You have been blessed with six children, wherein some individuals cannot even have one. I know that you may be feeling overwhelmed right now, especially with a 10 month old, but reach out to us, here on praying.org, or friends and family and know that we are all here for you. I pray that the lord hears your prayer and restores your faith so you may feel secure with this situation. God bless you and your family, and remember, we are here for you.