Dear Kelsey, i have prayed on your behalf.

It seems as the spirit of homosexuality is attacking you. I agree with all of the comments above. I do not believe this is something that you should go through it alone, you do need accountability from a sound christian counselor if possible. And if not other strong christians praying for you and sharing of your spiritual progress with them.

Do you know the possibly why this spirit has a stronghold on you? Also, i do not want to sound like an old-school, but my personal view is that romantic relationships are best left for after high school. And especially for christians, after they have aquired discernment of spirits. Wouldn't it be better spiritually if you could concentrate in your education, spiritual life, and serving the Lord, and leave this relationship things for latter when you are better equipped?

But if i were you, i would try whatever it takes to flee from this sinning situation, because of the potential spiritual and emotional consequences, and scarring that could take YEARS to heal. When you have so much ahead of you.

Anyhow, this is the promise from scriptures:

"But He gives a greater grace. Therefore it says, 'God is opposed to the proud, but gives grace to the humble'.

Submit therefore to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you. Draw near to God and He will draw near to you. Cleanse your hands, you sinners; and purify your hearts, you double-minded. Be miserable and mourn and weep; let your laughter be turned into mourning, and your joy to gloom." (James 4:6-9)

"You have not yet resisted to the point of shedding blood in your striving against sin;"
(Hebrew 12:4)

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