if you know jesus as lord, you are worthy of all that God has to offer. Know this first then you will see righteousness. Never say in your mind that you are not worthy or you do not deserve , or you are meant to be down. you are worthy by his stripes. Because of Jesus you deserve. It's not what God wants for you to be oppressed by yourself, and it is not the kind of thought that God would appreciate either. God will bless you if you believe it and act as though you do. faith is believing,its really all we have, ask God for the gift of faith, then practice it and perfect it, then you will have the kingdom of heaven and all the blessing there of.