I hear what you are saying and I know this is a difficult "topic" to talk about. Life is full of pressure and and temptations. There is so many things that we face, and that we must trust in God, to do the right things. There is much more things to life, that make you feel good, and one day, when you are married, and have that true love in your life, you will receive a priceless gift. Love is a strong emotion and can drive us all crazy sometimes. All the feelings and emotions that build inside from it, is unexplainable. Think of the love you feel, when you do something nice for someone. I believe that God himself, has planned this "intervention" , in your life, to show you things you may not be seeing right now. New doors will be opened for you, and when that time of marriage be blessed upon you, you will know that you made the right decision. God and your heart, is telling you to do this. You were strong enough to make that decision, and I have so much respect for you. You are on the right path, don't get lost, as you will find your way to a beautiful place, and future. I will be praying for you, as I send my blessings your way.

God Bless-

-Jess