Wow, I feel your pain, and I know how hard it is to understand why your mother's thought's and actions. My brother is an alcoholic and it is so difficult to help him, and to understand him. I have been embarrassed many times because of things my brother has done to my family, and around friends of mine, but I realized that it is a real "Problem" that he has, and he has to want to help himself. He is in prison right now, because of other problems, but basically I want to you to know that, your mother is not aware of the pain she is causing, or what she is doing, because she needs help. I am so sorry that you and your sisters have to be put in the middle of your mother's problems. Have you tried writing her a letter, and giving it to her, before she is under the influence? It's hard to understand the things people do, especially family members, but things happen like this, and you have to do what is best for yourself. I will be praying for you, and know that you did nothing wrong, and you have not caused her drinking habit, or anything else. You seem like a great person with a good heart. Be strong, and follow your dreams. Do not loose hope. I pray your mother is blessed with healing from her habits, love, respect, and understanding today, and forever- may your family be reunited and put back together. I send you my blessings.


-Jess