i am so lost ,the circumstances are so bleak things just seem to go from bad to worse....it seems that god cant even get thru on this one ,,,,,I promised my daughter that I wouldnt give up on her..she feels so hurt by all of this,her hopes and dreams are being thrown away and discarded like an old shoe. I keep telling her that nothing is impossible with god but it seems that this is beyond even god to fix and how do I teach my kids about the miracles that god can do when she is just being mowed over and crushed by all of this, she is in so much pain and I cant rescue her and feel like a failure as a father because I didnt do what I should have done to keep this from falling apart and it is out of control to do anything about it now. I should have listened to the needs of my wife but I didnt because I felt like she didnt care about me ,I must now live with the regret of knowing my failures as a husband and a father will now have to be a burdon that wont heal for my daughter she just gets to suffer for the rest of her life because mom and dad couldnt figure it out and when dad did figure it out it was too late for mom.so my little girl gets to have this heart ache that wont ever go away. Because mom and dad can just go find some one new to make all the pain go away (which doesnt really work) she doesnt have that "out" she gets to just go on hurting with no end in sight. Her greif is huge and she feels that praying for god to heal her home is the only thing that keeps her going. but what would happen if mom and dad did find someone new it will crush her little spirit beyond repair.
I love her mom with all my heart and I hope that someday god does put us back together but her mom just wants me to disapear, I cant just leave,that would crush my kids spirit, I wont abandon them ,I was absent for enough time in there life and now being there for them is my only goal in life.