Almost four weeks ago, my life changed. Before then, I was quite spiritual and had an indelible faith in God. That all changed when I found myself in the hospital unexpectedly at 21 weeks pregnant undergoing emergent surgery. Throughout that time, I maintained my faith in God that me and my unborn child would be fine. Numerous prayers were sent out on our behalf and despite them all, my baby was born prematurely and died 2 hours later. I had prayed for this child after years of infertility. God answered our prayers and gave us a son only to take him away. How does one come to terms and find meaning after something this devastating? How can I regain faith in God? I search for answers and feel hopeless.....