Dear intercessors

Please pray for me to speak in boldness and power when I face a crowd and express my thoughts
I've been in the renewal for sometime now but still sit on the chairs in a prayer meeting.
Please pray for me to go forth and be freed of nervousness and what to say when I get there.
I want to be wholehearted for God and I face a dilemma of being hurt through memories of past. I was abused by my father when I was a kid and he continued to do so for some time. I was living in shame and a negative image of myself.. I hid like this for years. My father passed away some years back and I kept worrying if he has been forgiven and if he has gone to heaven..
I was new to a deliverance church then but found it difficult to open up in front of my father and was nervous of the pastor. My father passed away in a short while. The church too on their part said something to me whilst I was still mourning...that broke me further.. I have not been able to relate to prayer people for a while then or associate with a church.

I ask you to pray for my inner healing and for God to give me a good earthly shepherd, a church of love where i can fellowship.

My husband came in much later and is saved. My children are saved. They wonder what is wrong with me. I wonder what is wrong..how to take this ache away from my heart. God has led me to open up with you intercessors and I believe your unceasing prayers will surely help me..Please pray for me and my loved ones. I can count on you as people with pure hearts and believe God hears our cry for freedom. I want to be free from the past and everything that hinders me in being one with the Lord Jesus. I love Him and I want to be able to tell the world about Him. Please pray for God to use me, my husband and son and daughter as witnesses of His love.. I love all of you.