MM ~ I too, am in the SAME boat as you, although, I am not blessed with beautiful children as you are. Please take this time and wrap your self and love around those little ones that need you more than ever. You are so very blessed to be a mother and a wife. Pray to God every day/night and if you are Catholic (or not, as in my case) involve the Blessed Mother Mary, as she is a POWERFUL intercessor for you to Jesus. I have found what helps me when I'm feeling overwhelmed and sad and depressed that my husband has filed for divorce, I go to the Cathedral church and go before the Blessed Eucharist and I pray, sometimes say the rosary and just feel His presence. It REALLY has helped me in my most down times. I pray MM, that God will answer your prayers for your husband to return home and you can be a family again - sometimes God allows these things for a good purpose (even though we absolutely can't understand them at the time). I will pray for you and I KNOW how hard this is to do sometimes, but DON'T LOOSE YOUR FAITH IN GOD AND KEEP BELIEVING AND KEEP PRAYING. I recently heard Adrian Rogers sermon on prayer - his words were to NEVER, NEVER, NEVER stop praying - don't give up on what you've asked God for - He hears us - make sure you have a good relationship with your Heavenly Father and He will make your paths straight! - God Bless You - keep your chin up - you are VERY BLESSED!!!