Thank all of you who are praying for us. I know that God continues to work in our marriage. I am trying my best to surrender it all and trust him for his timing. I fall apart 5-6 times a day. I try not to let my kids see this, and with Gods help I can protect them from having those questions in their hearts. I am at home now with the kids. I finally got the youngest to bed. Thier mom is out with her girlfriends for the weekend. I did not ask where as the last time it sparked anger and rage on her part. She has made it clear that in her mind our marriage is over, so she doesn't have to tell me anything. She has not filed papers yet, Praise God !! and I continue to hold her up in prayer.

Tears fall as I ask God for guidance and strength. I long for our marriage to be healed and to be able to be a complete family again. I am trying not to be double minded in my prayer and ask that God would help me to have faith and trust in what his word says. His promises about marriage and that it is his will that our marriage be saved this comforts me as do all of you. For that I am greatful. It seems that my wife is softening her stance toward me, but continues to test me by indifference. It seems that she wants to see if the changes she sees in me are going to last. What I want to shout and cant is that God has changed me and continues to help me to be a better father, husband, friend, brother. If only she could know this in her heart.

Please agree with me in prayer: Father thank-you for this opportunity to grow closer to you. I lift up my wife and ask that you would heal her body, heart, mind and spirit. I ask that she would have a desire in her heart to know you as her savior. Please turn her toward her family, and help her to remove the wall between us. Lord I pray that she would feel peace in her heart when she is around me. Help her to look at me through your eyes.help her to forgive me and to trust me. Help us father to begin to build an renewed relationship built on you. Help me to have the right words and actions, that I would be the man that you need me to be. Father in the name of Jesus I bind satan and his lies. I pray Father your protection around my wife. Lord wherever she is right now I claim in the name of Jesus your protection over her. Protect her from the lies of this world, from opportunity for sin. I pray God that you would speak to her heart and show her how much you love her. in the name of Jesus. Please God calm my spirit. Amen.