Dear MM, I know this is going to sound kind of cliche and possibly not as profound or what you want to hear because it sounds to me like you want a quick solution. Unfortunately, there is none, except, open your bible and read the bible, get on line if need be between taking care of your kids and speak to beleivers. I am going through something horrible w/my daughter and 2 months later it is still there; however, I have found great and I mean great comfort in reading the bible, attending Sunday mass and writing to anyone that will listen. I have posted my needs on every and any board possible for strength, faith, peace of mind and the courage to continue to must do the same. Reading the bible gives you a sense of security and will help you keep things in perspectives. I am on line whenever I get a chance during my career and taking care of my household and child. Please feel free to directly email me. Please open your bible, get into attending regular services and God will turn it around. Believe me please!