christain -heartbreak of any type is a difficult pain to overcome ,I have had much in my own life ...funny thing today at 51 years old I think I finally have full faith in God .I am a sinner and the readings I read today proved we can be forgiven if we earnestly turn to him.You cannot let one person ruin your life and doubt your faith .You seem to have done everything to save this relationship and like jesus himself are not striking out at those who hurt you.Continue to be the great person you are ,i am sure your children need your love .You will get through this trying time ..god bless you mike g