Originally Posted by mm1565

I'm still battling my relationship with Edward. Its been so hard for since our separation. I'm now in a deep depression , I try to hide it from work and my kids but I know they sense something is wrong. I'm having thoughts run thru my head. There are times i want to go to sleep and never wake up. I want my life to end. Why am I thinking this way. I have so much going for me, I have a successful business and wonderful kids but my love is gone. I miss him so much. This was suppose to be a life time comitment for us. Where did it all go wrong. He knows I love him and how comitted I am to him. I pray everyday for the Lord to forgive him and warm him cold heart and reconcile our relationship. I feel I can't go on anymore. I want the pain to end. I can't be cold and mean to him, all I have to offer him is my love, comittment, devotion and understanding. God please release this pain from me. I'm going crazy and I'm on the verge of a nervous breakdown or worse. Help me please...