I'm still battling my relationship with Edward. Its been so hard for since our separation. I'm now in a deep depression , I try to hide it from work and my kids but I know they sense something is wrong. I'm having thoughts run thru my head. There are times i want to go to sleep and never wake up. I want my life to end. Why am I thinking this way. I have so much going for me, I have a successful business and wonderful kids but my love is gone. I miss him so much. This was suppose to be a life time comitment for us. Where did it all go wrong. He knows I love him and how comitted I am to him. I pray everyday for the Lord to forgive him and warm him cold heart and reconcile our relationship. I feel I can't go on anymore. I want the pain to end. I can't be cold and mean to him, all I have to offer him is my love, comittment, devotion and understanding. God please release this pain from me. I'm going crazy and I'm on the verge of a nervous breakdown or worse. Help me please...

07-29-08
I have taken a few weeks to find myself and accept that Edward is no longer in our lives. He made it very clear of our demise of our marriage. He is currently living with his ex girlfriend. As hard as it has been for me I can no longer endure the pain and i need to move on. I want to thank everyone that prayed for our relationship and our children. May God bless you. I can only pray that God take care of my family and that we see a brighter light for us. Amen